crash and burn

right now, meng is in malaysia and i am right here in singapore. at first it kind of feels wierd without him as normally every time when i am out of e shop, i will call him while both of us are working. however right now, hmm hmm ... last night, i recieved a msg from him. it wasl ike finally..!!! at least thank god i was not as affected as i thought i would be, so when it is time for him to go army and go back to malaysia during chinese new yr, i would be ok, means i will be able to adapt to e changes.
many things have happened in e shop. compititions are everywhere. how i wish i cann just get a proper job in e marketing department or go back to study.

today is a sunday when everyone is at home sleeping or preparing to go church or out with their family , a death occur in my home .
Yesterday we happened to notice a hamster who broke his leg when we were choosing hamster for our customer. So we decided to put him aside as we did not wanted to cost any more injury to him . At night i decided to bring him home as he would be alone in e cold store room and will be without water . He was not eating fine or drinking fine at all . He was only using his two hands to move around . Cute cute and i decided to call him terry as we thought his will power was as strong as terry fox . How ever this morning zhen i woke up i found him not moving. Even no matter how hard i shake him . He was dead . I am so heart broken when i saw him . He looked like he was sleeping but e fact is he is dead . He was so guai and cute . Hai . Hai hope he is happy now in some where else in e world or where ever. Now i am rushing to work after burying him downstairs my home . Rest in peace terry.

stress stress stress

firstly i would like to proudly announce tat i got a total of ten hamsters. Dunhill,winston,jingle,rudoph,bobo,chacha,feifei and lucky. Among all of them, lucky is e poor thing one, as he has skin pro tat needs to be treated. I just love all of them to bits just like how i love tigar.
Work is pretty stress for me. Lack of staff and tough competitions too. Sometimes is not tat i don work hard enough but i just work too hard and don know whether i am at e right track anot . Hai wad should i do? All u tell me is not to think so negative. E other person involve in e competition is pretty strong and experience too. I am pro just scared of failure. Sometimes i don even feel like socialising or even speaking a word. Other than these, every thing is fine at work. Nice environment to work in which u have to advice people on their pets and stuff.
There is so many things in my head right now tat i don know how to even express it out. I know u are there for me. I know u are doing alot for me. But i don wanna saying things tat will make us end up quarreling. I just wanna us to be happy and treasure e times tat we are together.
After tat night , i feel more secure towards us. How ever tat day i just felt a sudden insecurity in everything. My position in us in everything. I am afraid tat i might lose everything . Hmm hmm any way just recieve a call tat i got to work morning cause of some stupid reasons so i got to stop here than . . .

Speechless

A Mistake Which Is To Late To Be Learnt

A Change in Job

Yesterday was my last day at Funan aka Nokia. Got a new Job at PS in Pets' Lovers Centre. Tuesday will officially be my first day there and linkin park concert will also be on that day. yippie. though it is like balcany sits, i got it free man, lol . so who cares.
yesterday finish work at 8.30 and headded down to PS with kenneth and we played arcade. haven been so care free for a long time already. finally i am able to take a break after a long stressful 2 months at nokia.
today i shall be a good gal and stay at hm till late afternoon ,when i will meet up with mi mdis ex classmates in diploma. haven seen them for ages. some have gone out to work and others have gone into NS.
suppose to climb in SP today but mi boi friend and mi mum put a stop for mi not to go there and climb due to some reasons though.miss climbing. miss wearing home clothes,hmmm hmmm.
will stop here.

Suzuki Swift Sports

i am so glad that something have been possible for mi. Suzuki Swift Sports. went to pay the booking fees with mummy on sunday however, only can collect e car next yr hopefully jan. wil be working hard helping to pay for the car though. finally decided on a gun metal grey instead of yellow and white, as yellow is all over the road and white is hard to take care, so i suppose grey is still the best lol.
today is mi off day. gonna head down to cute cute hm to fetch him so we can head to paya labar for his interview. hmmm pet shop .. how i wish i got the chance to work in a pet shop too man. hope to head to Sp to climb today. i think pro i have to start all over again for climbing as i have not been even climbing for e past one month due to being sick and mi busy schedule. however i was told by cute ucte that we had invitation to Tp to climb/.. hmmm hmmm. lol lol ..
there are some conflict between mi mum and mi boy friend. i am so caught in the middle. hia wad do i do. ?? or do i just dun do any thing?? I DUN KNOE....
I got Linkin Park Tickets.. YEH YEH YEH!! FOC.. cool gonna catch them in indoor stadium,
lol..lol..LINKIN PARK!!.

Tired. Tired .Tired

yap today is mi off day. and it is gonna be one which is gonna be boring and tired i would say. many nice unforgetable things and many shits and quarrels had happened. hmm and i am tired of all e quarrels and shits. super tired. just had a major quarrel with mi parents, and i got to finally get the things i wanted to say long ago out of mi heart. it was a real relieve i would say. every issue is mi who is the problematic one i suppose.. i am so tired extremly tired just wanna be alone at times cause no one can help mi or listen to mi as i understand miself the best.yap i am having the time of the month now and feeling like shit and pro emo man.
any way, enough of those shit. that day went to test drive the suzuki swift sports and the feeling was WOW.. no doubts that the pick up of that car is good. i cant wait to own that car..one pro now, i do not have a idea which colour to get though. hmm... yap i got people calling mi spoilt and stuff but hello i am also paying part of it.. working mi ass off to be able to at least pay some. and if the car has successful come, i will need to work mi ass off again to do changes to it. like sound system,rims and stuff... lol..
today, in the morning, suddenly got an unexpected friend came to ask mi izzit i had an accident .. !!!! wtf. he seems to knoe things which is happening man. omg.. who e hell did he even heard it from? gonna stop here will try to upload a video clip.