Tired. Tired .Tired

yap today is mi off day. and it is gonna be one which is gonna be boring and tired i would say. many nice unforgetable things and many shits and quarrels had happened. hmm and i am tired of all e quarrels and shits. super tired. just had a major quarrel with mi parents, and i got to finally get the things i wanted to say long ago out of mi heart. it was a real relieve i would say. every issue is mi who is the problematic one i suppose.. i am so tired extremly tired just wanna be alone at times cause no one can help mi or listen to mi as i understand miself the best.yap i am having the time of the month now and feeling like shit and pro emo man.
any way, enough of those shit. that day went to test drive the suzuki swift sports and the feeling was WOW.. no doubts that the pick up of that car is good. i cant wait to own that car..one pro now, i do not have a idea which colour to get though. hmm... yap i got people calling mi spoilt and stuff but hello i am also paying part of it.. working mi ass off to be able to at least pay some. and if the car has successful come, i will need to work mi ass off again to do changes to it. like sound system,rims and stuff... lol..
today, in the morning, suddenly got an unexpected friend came to ask mi izzit i had an accident .. !!!! wtf. he seems to knoe things which is happening man. omg.. who e hell did he even heard it from? gonna stop here will try to upload a video clip.

The Happenings In Siloso Beach Resort

Thats Wad I Need

I seriously need to start dolling myself up again!! Need to get something done to my hair, Dress properly and not just grab anything from e cardboard.

Great Weekend Just Pass

wow. fri sat and sun was a cool and fun weekend. friday morning, woke up at 8 in e morning and met micheal at mi hm, drove to his hm and park e car there and he gave mi a ride on his Mx5 as i was too stone and tired to drive cause reached hm only at 12 plus 1 e night before. yawns.. lol after that we went to get something to eat and drove to bukit timah, hillcrese to collect lana chocolate cake. picked it up and rushed to west mall to get some candles and stuff. since it was on e way, i dropped by at mi sec school too. spoke to mr tan and mrs chan tt. e 2 teachers who encouraged mi e most during mi school days. After everything, i headed down to cute ucte hm to fetch him. as usual he was not ready yet. still in his PJs... lol. had lunch at his hm as his dad cooked... after him taking his own sweet time, lol we headed down to vivo to get some beers, soda water and ,drinks , chips and mi tooth brush. finally we chould check in into e hotel (siloso beach resort). after times and times staying in hotels, i suddenly do not have e feeling or ever stay in a chalet. we checked in at e reception and got our room which is room number 620.
e room was quite up to standard and it was overlooking the palawan beach and cafe delmar.
rested and headed out to fetch mic, de wei and melvin at mic hm. we reached kind of early though so we went up to his hm. saw mian mian and as usual she went round and round and round. lol. even 50 times wont be a problem for her man. lol
all of them got cute ucte real pist high in e night. i was looking after him as i did not wanted any thing to happen man. got him to cut e cake and blew e candle before he fell asleep. lol. mic, de wei and yeo got him feather light condoms.. i was like zzzz wtf. and a card which insulted woman ... lol.. i got cute cute a globe t shirt , dog tag and a combine pic of us and not to forget a card. hope he like it. e next day we headed to e pool to swim and after that cute ucte and i went to vivo, we got a pair of identical shoes...after that we headed back to e hotel to rest and after that i brought him to had a chocolate buffet. yummy. baby's fav is chocolate. lol lol. and we went down to MOS with his friends.
at about 5 plus we reached e hotel and bathe and had cup noodles. lol. and slept, as i was already feeling sick. mi nose was running and was coughing very badly and e night before i had asthma. i have been having asthma attacks quite often this few days..pro not enough sleep and rest. we only woke up at 3 plus 4 and had a late checked out...
oh yes oh yes. we bought a pair of furry hamster. lol lol. thier names are, dunhill and winston. also bought them thier hm and food. super active and one keep climbing. lol i see a potential in it in rock climbing. lol lol. some more is dun have to use leg one lo. it is at cute cute hm and i am to go there once a week to clean them. hmmm. hmmm.
yes i am dead sick now only wen to work for a few hours and went to see doc and came hm. gonna get some rest now. Cheers

The 1st and Last Clue To My Lame Birthday Plan

hmm hmm. today i came back quite early after work. was a good gal. met mic at marina square... damm did not wanted to bao toh him cause he said not to mention BUT fuck. it got mi hair messed up cause he did not wanted to whine up e windows earlier.dammm. ya that MX 5... i was wondering whether i would be seen if i sat in the car. lol lol. damm damm damm nv will i forgive him for that.
oh yes. hiaz everything was suppose to be a small surprise but zzzz no idea who said it out.. zzzz thanks ar... any way plan A distroyed , plan B is still on. muhahaha. just a small clue, you are gonna become fat after ur birthday or in other words actually on e day. lol lol.wadever ...lol lol. k i am getting excited.. hmm i just love planning stuff and see it go well.. yeh yeh.. hehehe.
hey man, he is a lucky bitch! i dun even get so many people to celebrate mi birthday. gonna take loads and loads of pics during e 3 days. yeh yeh..lol..tomorrow still got to work.. hiaz.. it is getting bored. not as exciting as before.any way who cares another 2 more days of work than i will off for 3 days.. oh yeh!!!
kk k gonna just stop here for now.

So Far So Good

hmm hmm so far every thing have been quite good at work. cute cute is working with mi in e same location and it kind of encourage mi to go work more. baby birthday is round e corner and yap will be celebrating with him. hope he is looking forward to it as much as i am. we booked sentosa beach resort 3 day 2 nights. and got a few surprises awaiting with e help of some people. hmm hmm pro he will nv ever guess wad it will be. lol hope he will like it. hmm hmm.. hmm hmm.. on fri morning, i would have to get some things done first before i fetch cute cute to head down to sentosa .on e first night which is fri night, mic de wei and melvin will be meeting us pro for dinner as well. than they pro will drink till quite late.hmmm next day will spend e day with baby and at night ... muhahahahaha. baby figure it out urself. lol lol .. hahaha. yap.. stupid boi keep telling mi dun need to give him present. lol.. lol.. muahahahahaha... =X .. k wad ever i am going nuts.
starting to get quite pist off my mi company and thinking of changing. mi aunty will be helpping mi pull string into a advertising company. many people says it is not easy getting a job in there. so if i am offered why not give it a try since i will be majoring in marketing in future...
cute cute got his enlistment already. 13 march 2008. hmm guess i will be missing him when he is in camp. tekong.!!!! wad a place .. wad if they dun have reception.?? means i cant call or msg him .. !!!! arrr.... zzz i am just thinking too much again lol lol. think when he is in camp, i will pro go back to school and study or work and study at night. have been spending almost every day with cute ucte, wonder wad will happen when he enter camp though.hiaz hiaz. hmm hmm wad ever it is, i am looking forward to his birthday. lol lol ..
however, e past few days, he have been acting weridly. it kind of worried mi. is cause i have no idea wad is thinking about at all. it really did freak mi out though. hope those issues are over now and we can carry on our normal life again. tomorrow will be another day at work. got to sleep early..so shall just stop here than.

Get On With Life Bitch!!

yap i have got to learn to get on with life even though shits does happens. hmm yesterday went for a photo shoot. e concept totally rock. was taking pic outside velvet dragon and i have decided to visit that place this wed since thursday i am on off. i got to start clubbing and be young again man. enough of rotting and chilling. i am young so act young and have a young and unhealthy life style man. lol.. i miss climbing , i miss all e people there. just miss climbing hope i will be able to make mi way there this week at else 2 or 3 times... hmmm... in e working world since everyone is fake, y not u play a part in it too and be fake. i got to learn how to be real fake man while working. with mi freak and stupid self, i wont get far nor promoted at all. y should i help people cover thier ass or even treat one with sincere and respect? so to conclude, u got to be FAKE while working always cover ur ass and just cover ur ass. but at e same time knoe who is real to u and repay him....
believe or not i have not tried shots. k maybe once. lol. was telling de wei about it and he said try it while in velvet dragon la .... lol ... shots... hmm hmm hmm hmm. though i had quite lot of sleep today, i am still feeling tired. and trying to carry on with life and e most i can do now is guard miself against everything.
am hearing a song right now.... wads love??? its should be all about us it should be all about trust....hmmm hmm hmm. just to think back, i have gone through lots of shits and after all, i have learn new lessons... so it is not that bad after all at least i got to learn something new.
am on MC today. i have not even recover every since before kl trip.. omg it is like close to 1 -2 months. wad is wrong with mi body system.???

confuse

i m at a lost , i dun knoe wad to do any more!! someone help mi pls pls help mi... y am i always like a sucker. i got enough of all e shits. i cant take it any more, mentally, emotionally and physically. i just wan to hide in a corner all by miself and cry miself to sleep.just tell mi wad should i do. wad ever i say is always not taken serious. could all those shit be avoided? can it? someone answer mi pls. i need a aim in mi life again. now all i can say is mi life just suck. when will i be able to get up on mi feets again. hiaz..